Relationships With Others
In general, how do you treat others
(politely, rudely, by keeping them at a distance, etc.)? Does your
treatment of them change depending on how well you know them, and if
so, how?
Most start at a baseline. I am not one
of those “You gotta earn my respect!” people. You have to earn my
time. I am polite and am accused of having a mother that raised me
well. I do the whole opening doors, holding doors, and all that shit.
Not to get ass but because it feels natural. But...I have been
perceived as rude by people that do not know me well because I tend
to not talk to people I find uninteresting.
Who is the most important person in
your life, and why?
My best friend Camille. She is because
she is.
Who is the person you respect the most,
and why?
I try to give most people the same
amount but oddly its probably my mother. I won't curse in front of
her. That sounds more like respectful.
Who are your friends? Do you have a
best friend? Describe these people.
I don't have a lot of friends. I'd say
I have six or seven people I consider an actual friend and even that
is in varying degrees. Of those people I would say that three are
very close and two could be my best one. Not surprisingly they are
all women and I've known them for years. None of them are similar to
one another.
Do you have a spouse or significant
other? If so, describe this person.
Nope.
Have you ever been in love? If so,
describe what happened.
I've been in love a couple of times and
thought I was in love until I fell in love with someone else where it
was like “Oh, okay. This is actual love.” What happened is that
they left.
What do you look for in a potential
lover?
I've stopped looking but when I did it
was someone that was nice and that I could talk to.
How close are you to your family?
Not close at all. I just talk to two
out of hundreds of them regularly.
Have you started your own family? If
so, describe them. If not, do you want to? Why or why not?
No I have not. I used to want a family
but as time went on I realized I was not good at picking a partner or
the ones I wanted didn't want me. Right now I couldn't imagine having
a kid because I would have to raise them like a veal.
Who would you turn to if you were in
desperate need of help?
Camille. Poor thing.
Do you trust anyone to protect you?
Who, and why?
No. Took a minute to think about this
one. When I think of protect I think physically and I don't think I
know anyone that could do that besides me.
If you died or went missing, who would
miss you?
I assume my friends and some of my
family.
Who is the person you despise the most,
and why?
Yeesh. No one I personally know. Its
folks like politicians and people I'll never meet.
Do you tend to argue with people, or
avoid conflict?
I so do not argue. Its stupid and a
waste of time.
Do you tend to take on leadership roles
in social situations?
I try my best not to be noticed in
social situations which is difficult when you are 6 foot 1 and likely
the only Black guy there. Picture that scene from Get Out.
Do you like interacting with large
groups of people? Why or why not?
No, I do not. I don't because when
groups are large its loud and difficult to have a conversation worth
having or finding someone to do that with.
Do you care what others think of you?
Not as much anymore. On paper I am a
boring loser with no goals. In real life I am just a dude that used
to care far too much and over the years realized that what most
people want or value the most are useless in my life or would just
make my life one I don't want to live...with no goals. I don't care if you don't like
me but I'd rather that if you do you don't make my life dramatic.
Likes And Dislikes
What is/are your favorite hobbies and
pastimes?
I enjoy writing, making music, reading,
making podcasts, watching movies and good TV shows, and I used to
draw way more often. I also like making Perler bead creations and
painting backgrounds for them. I like hanging out with my friends and
my cousins and eating and laughing like idiots. I also enjoy ironing
my clothes.
What is your most treasured possession?
My Hasbro Be Mores Blue “Surprise”Dragon Dinosaur. Took me 30 years to figure out what it was called
and have it in my possession again.
What is your favorite color?
Red. Its always been red.
What is your favorite food?
Oh, don't make me pick! Lately I've
been loving chicken in many forms.
What, if anything, do you like to read?
I love a damn good book. I even like
reading my old stories I forgot writing. I have not read a book in
months instead reading a lot of articles. Its hard for me to get into
audio books so if I say I read a book I really did.
What is your idea of good entertainment
(consider music, movies, art, etc.)?
Sitting in a theater watching a fun
movie. Listening to a new album that is surprisingly good or being at
a great concert. Recording podcasts with my cousin Jasmine is pure
entertainment and fun.
Do you drink, or use drugs? If so, why?
Do you want to quit?
I rarely drink and don't do drugs so no
need to quit.
How do you spend a typical Saturday
night?
Sit at home doing one of my hobbies or
talking on the phone.
What makes you laugh?
People falling down.
What, if anything, shocks or offends
you?
I am shocked when people do the same
things they don't like and are surprised or sad when things don't
change. I think the last time I was offended was when an ex's cousin
said I was mysterious. I was like “Bitch, you don't know me!” I
didn't say it but I thought it really hard.
What would you do if you had insomnia
and had to find something to do to amuse yourself?
I have had multiple serious bouts of
insomnia in my life. I used to just sit up mad but then I started
reading or when I lived with an ex woke her up to have sex. Now when
I can't sleep I exhaust my brain until I shut down.
How do you deal with stress?
Get away from what it causing it and if
I can't do that think of the fun things I'll do when I get away from
the stress causing situation. I also go into hiding. I'm good at
that.
Are you spontaneous, or do you always
need to have a plan?
I must have a plan. The things I have
done spontaneously are usually sex related. Which means I am not
spontaneous often.
What are your pet peeves?
People spitting on the ground, coughing
without covering your mouth, sneezing like they are in space, people
who take religious scripture literally, being asked if I am “sure”,
people who pop gum, people who treat politics like a team sport, and
liars.
Self Images And Etc.
Describe the routine of a normal day
for you. How do you feel when this routine is disrupted?
A normal day for me is waking up,
drinking coffee, and then writing or doing one of my hobbies. If it
is interrupted by something cool like hanging with my cousin or doing
yard work at my best friends house I am fine with that and enjoy it
and welcome it. If it is interrupted by something like construction
or loudness outside where I can't record bad rap songs or a podcast
then I get pissed.
What is your greatest strength as a
person?
I am consistent and like to think I am
dependable.
What is your greatest weakness?
Used to be not knowing when to let
someone go but now I'd say it is waiting for others to leave me. As
much as I love some folks in my life I am just waiting for them to
stop contacting or visiting me because they found a man or someone
easier to hang out with.
If you could change one thing about
yourself, what would it be?
I'd stop my hair from turning red when
it grows. Make my teeth a little sharper. (shrugs) Face wise not
much. Its okay. I am a solid 5 out of 10. Like, a really solid 5.
Are you generally introverted or
extroverted?
It really depends on where I am at and
with. I can be somewhere wack as hell but on the inside thoroughly
entertaining myself with songs or cartoons or watching people. I will
be accused of being quiet or an introvert where its really boredom or
having no one I want to talk to.
Are you generally organized or messy?
Organized. Being messy means I have to
spend time cleaning things which takes away from the fun time.
Name three things you consider yourself
to be very good at, and three things you consider yourself to be very
bad at.
I am good at getting people to reveal
secrets, remember things they thought they forgot, and learning new
things. I am bad at being patient with myself, understanding certain
behaviors in people, and relationships.
Do you like yourself?
Sure. I am alone probably 27 days a
month and rarely leave the house. I know how to entertain myself and
have hobbies which are fun...for me. I somehow make the people I love
laugh and happy. That makes me happy in turn.
What goal do you most want to
accomplish in your lifetime?
Live past 38.
Where do you see yourself in 5 years?
Probably just a mass of bones or dust
because I've been cremated and scattered into the Pacific Ocean or
the front yard of my childhood home on 89th street.
If you could choose, how would you want
to die?
Not on tape! No need to have marches in my name with my face on a cheap ass shirt. I don't want to die in my
sleep either. I'll likely die on fire screaming because of a bad
driver but if I could chose it'd be like how Lamar Odom almost died.
If you knew you were going to die in 24
hours, name three things you would do in the time you had left.
Post on Facebook that I was going to be
dead soon and if anyone used a emoji to express concern that I would
haunt the fuck out of them. Tell the people that I love that I love
them. And lastly checked to see if I have deleted everything
embarrassing from my laptops.
What is the one thing for which you
would most like to be remembered after your death?
That I was useful.
What three words best describe your
personality?
Loud, quiet, weird.
What three words would others probably
use to describe you?
Smart, funny, and weird.
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